Happy birthday to myself :D

today it's my 25th b'day......

getting older n older la XD

1st time celebrate my b'day after I came back from Melbourne ^^

quite exciting thought ^^

hope the brand new year will lead me have more happiness with myself; my friends n my family....... God Bless me PaPa ^^

Totally Depress......-u-

Recently~~~~~

• all the depress feeling become my "friend" again.........(that's not a good thing)

• when I feel depress no one I can talk to when I needs my friend(s) ><

• I think I'm the one will annoying peoples when I want to chat with them, specially those who had another half

• I doubt myself did I make the right choices or not again n again...... (this question keep spinning around my head)

• I'm really broke........coz the salary in July still not come out yet (DAMN)

• I totally lost myself

• I found out Oct 2008 to 2009 was the most difficult year that I ever lived

• I want to turn back the time while I still living in Melbourne (those days were my happiest day ever in my life; coz i met a lot of pplz)

• bad things keep coming to me.........hey~~~where are the good things been??? I'm here, can you join me?? I would like to have some luck + happy
  

How can I make myself happy????

HAPPY.........HAPPY...........HAPPY......... everyone know what it means........I also mention "Happy" in this blog....(should be ><)

recently I find out that it's really hard to make myself happy.......(how come?????)

it should had lots of elements to explain it.......

but maybe the most important thing was JOB....it makes me feel so down everytime when I went to job interviews.....

I mean most of the time I received the reject mail ....it said " I'm so sorry, but we already choose other person for this position " everytime when I check my email.......I must know that....it should be a reject mail *sigh* *sigh*.........

In the Chinese culture, it had a sentences like this " when u can suffer the bitter things, u can become a great people " I believe that sentences wasn't suitable for myself......

also everytime when I think I try my best for the interview, the result always wrong......I mean I even have no idea which part makes me fail for all the interviews.........

I remembered last time I applying the Management Trainee in a famous Japanese Restaurant in HK. After the HR manager said I'm not suitable for that position because they expected a person who was graduated from Hong Kong's university.....and I'm the person who graduated from overseas.....so they don't recognized my degree @ all......also he told me that no manager was willing to employ a staff was wearing bracelet; that's why most of the job interview was rejected me.....

It's quite heart-broken though........and my friends said he was discriminate me......sure it is....but how come they don't accept a person who's wearing a bracelet???? Will that person makes the workplace not welcome-able?? or what kind of excuse/ I'll bring the bad fortune for them???

@ this moment, I just want to scream out TWO words "FUCK YOU" to that Jap. Restaurant HR Manager

Suddenly Falls in love with RainyDay

Recently it's DAMN hot in HK.....

according to the news report, it said the highest temperature was in Wong Tai Sin --37*C lol

and the HK weather was so humanity.......that's the things I hated most, specially I never been HK's summer ages ago........I missed the winter @ Melbourne >w<

becoz of the Tropical storm---it named "SWAN"....it brings the cooler + rainy day weather....it makes me feel a lot better ^^ suddenly falls in love with the rainy days .....

sometimes I loved to walk under the rain........it makes me feel good.....HAHAHA XD I know it's kinda a weird things.....but it makes me feel more relief somehow ><

The weather in HK was so unpredictable ; this moment the sun appears, the next moment it starts raining......quite interesting thought.......somehow was quite annoying......coz u need had the umbrella with you all the time.

Swimming Time

Feel so good after go to swim ^^

always like swimming because it just like the time will stops when u under the water.....just for my opinion only......

although I'm not a professional swimmer, but I still like swimming along or with my friends.....

unfortunately it seems like most of them were don't know how to swim =="

I like to swim in the swimming pool, not in the beach......don't know why la......maybe because of the salty water + the sticky sands when u comes up from the sea......or maybe sharks HAHAHAHAHA XD

anyway la.......still waiting for the job period, let's do some sports.....it can keep fit and loose weight XD

How can I get support from my family???

most of time when I'm down,

no one here can give me support,

even though my family;

it's kinda weird that no family member gonna support themselves;

somehow i feel no one paid attention to myself......even though my mum

most of time were quite peaceful; but when I mention about my job interviews or the part-time exhibition job, the storms began........

last time i had a fight with my mum about money stuffs;

she said that I didn't paid her an penny; even though i had a causal job.....

but did she know that I also need to paid a lots of moneys with my teeth by myself? Each month I need to paid HKD$1000 until October/ Novemeber this year....it's quite a harsh time for myself either.....coz I nearly finished my saving of Aus dollar......don't know how can I paid for my teeth after 3-4 months....

after I've been to Taiwan, my uncle contact me and scold me about how can I still not get a proper job and things about I should take care my mum; coz she's old enough to get retired.....

Damn.........after I came back to Hong Kong , I don't feel anyone was supporting myself. I just acknowledge that I became a unpopular person.....and they just care about when I can let my mum retired, not care about what kind of jobs I looking for or how can I improve my interview skills........

I know now-a-days it's pretty hard to get a job, even though you holding a Degree nor Master......but my uncle just keep saying that his students also can find a job, and your mum is not a rich person, blah.....blah.......blah......

Sometimes I just want someone to comfort me......say something like " mum will support you " nor " everyone know that it's a hard time right now....just cheer up....."

It gave me lots of pressure after I came back; somehow I quite regard that I said I come back to Hong Kong after I done my degree......not listen to others about to get a PR things in Australia.......

really just want to go back time and stay @ Melbourne.....I'm such a idiot....everytime when I made decision I always choose the wrong path.....when I can get back on track to the right way........

Daddy........can u guide me back on the right track???

I wish u still here with our family.........dad

I wish...........

I wish Hong Kong was next to Melbourne..... so I can go back easily & visit my fds + sisters over there

I wish Daddy still here with us...........so we can enjoy a better life..........

I wish the whole world economic was back to normal soon......so the fresh graduates can get a job

I wish..............

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I met Doraemon in my life; so I can borrow his magic stuff XD

Career + Education Expo

This morning I went to the earliest interview I even had within these period ><

I mean the interview starts @ 9:30 in the morning.......I can say that I'm not a early bird person......normally I'll ask for my interview time @ noon.....so I can sleep more......

anyway........after the Dymocks Bookstorer interview, I went to Diamond Hill --Hollywood Plaza for the Career & Education Expo

after I get inside the expo, I spot the Hong Kong Airport Ambassador counter, so I went to that counter and ask about how to apply for the job........then I filled it in all my details, and I go back to the counter, one of the person ask me two questions

• How old are you?
  
• Did u passed in the HKCEE Chinese Subject?

Then I said I'm 24 years old.....then she asked " juz turn 24? " I reply " um.......no....this year I turn 25th. "

and that women ask one more question " Are you finished your degree? "

I said " yes, I finished my degree last year"

she said " sorry, we're not recruiting the university student "

then I look like 0_o ", and I thought What the Hell + DAMN.........u wasting my time, madam

later on I checked back their bouchure, it said the salary was HKD$6000/ month

I'm so glad that they don't need me HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA XD

How can u define HAPPY ???

Definition of Happy:

• feeling, showing, or causing pleasure or satisfaction (sources from Cambridge Dictionary online)

• delighted, pleased, or glad ( dictionary.com)

• Characterized by good luck; fortunate.(Ask.com)

• Cheerful; willing (Ask.com)

• Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy. (Ask.com)

Sometimes happy it's hard to get it;

Sometimes happy just nearby yourself, but you can't feel it;

Sometimes u wish happy always be with you, but it's not...........

Rainy Days

Recently HK was steps into the rainy season; not sure when the typoon seasons come......

anyway.......I kinda love & hate rainy days.....

sometimes when u feel down......I loved the rain drops on me......

but sometimes I hate it becoz it rains so sudden and I didn't bring my umbrella.....nor when I bring my umbrella, it doesn't rains @ all.....DAMN

Cat's Corner Grand Opening

Horay for Cat's Corner Grand Opening :D

I totally forgot how many blogs I did open it and not using them @ all XD

hopefully I'll keep writing some stuffs for " Cat's Corner "

sometimes I'll copy & paste my xanga stuff in here as well........ ( lazy persons way ><)

anyway hope u guys enjoy it ^^ (or maybe juz enjoy myself in here >"<)